Well I just wanted to see if I was the only one who felt specifically this way.
Why is everyone always afraid of death? I'm afraid of the pain, perhaps, but not death itself... why would it be so bad to be dead? I mean, there are things on Earth that I enjoy, yes, but I believe in Heaven and I would most definitely rather be there any day... The only thing that has kept me from killing myself is the fact that I would "go to hell" a la the Holy Bible. I don't know if that's true, but I guess I'll never know, and I'm not quite willing to risk it. Good thing I don't own a firearm though. Seriously, what's so bad about death? And by me saying that, does that say something about how much I enjoy life? Not that much. Death just seems like a good thing to me, in that it will take me somewhere better. Even if Heaven doesn't exist, I won't be alive to miss my life on Earth right? I'll just be dead. I won't be able to miss it. So it just seems so welcoming to me...
And my take on suicide, for me, is kind of the more selfish type. Some people want to die because they feel they're a burden. For me, it's like, life is so difficult, and there's so much stuff to worry about, and it gets to be such a pain, and I have so many things to do, it feels like an endless race. So if I'm dead, I wouldn't have to worry about any of it anymore. If I'm just taking an eternal dirt nap then I would have no conscience to be able to miss life, and I would be relieved of the hassle that is life. Granted I wouldn't feel the relief, but the sense of knowing that I will never have to do this or that again before I die, would be wonderful. It just seems to make sense to me. Again, good thing I don't have a gun. Life just seems so overwhelming. Especially when you hate certain parts of yourself you know you cannot change. I hate all that bullshit about being optimistic and perservering and blah FUCK that. Some things you just can't fucking change.
I was just trying to see someone else's take on my ideas and if they agree or have had similar feelings. Death just seems like a good thing to me, always has. Never been afraid of actual death. Maybe that says I'm apathetic about life then? :faint:
Why is everyone always afraid of death? I'm afraid of the pain, perhaps, but not death itself... why would it be so bad to be dead? I mean, there are things on Earth that I enjoy, yes, but I believe in Heaven and I would most definitely rather be there any day... The only thing that has kept me from killing myself is the fact that I would "go to hell" a la the Holy Bible. I don't know if that's true, but I guess I'll never know, and I'm not quite willing to risk it. Good thing I don't own a firearm though. Seriously, what's so bad about death? And by me saying that, does that say something about how much I enjoy life? Not that much. Death just seems like a good thing to me, in that it will take me somewhere better. Even if Heaven doesn't exist, I won't be alive to miss my life on Earth right? I'll just be dead. I won't be able to miss it. So it just seems so welcoming to me...
And my take on suicide, for me, is kind of the more selfish type. Some people want to die because they feel they're a burden. For me, it's like, life is so difficult, and there's so much stuff to worry about, and it gets to be such a pain, and I have so many things to do, it feels like an endless race. So if I'm dead, I wouldn't have to worry about any of it anymore. If I'm just taking an eternal dirt nap then I would have no conscience to be able to miss life, and I would be relieved of the hassle that is life. Granted I wouldn't feel the relief, but the sense of knowing that I will never have to do this or that again before I die, would be wonderful. It just seems to make sense to me. Again, good thing I don't have a gun. Life just seems so overwhelming. Especially when you hate certain parts of yourself you know you cannot change. I hate all that bullshit about being optimistic and perservering and blah FUCK that. Some things you just can't fucking change.
I was just trying to see someone else's take on my ideas and if they agree or have had similar feelings. Death just seems like a good thing to me, always has. Never been afraid of actual death. Maybe that says I'm apathetic about life then? :faint: