I have been more suicidal than ever. I have been thinking ALOT of dying/killing myself. I just feel there is NO hope. I am just alone and spend basicially all my time in a dark room. I even have EXTREMELY low energy cause I depressed myself to oblivion. The slashes on my wrist are deeper than before. All I see is pain. I just want to hangout with someone. Just to have fun. But all I see is malice. And day by day it gets worse to I just feel like I can't go on. The worse thing anyone can be is lonely and that is what I have been ALL my life.