My mom just recently passed on, she was only 61, from the time we found out something was wrong until it happened was only 3 weeks. She was my best friend and the only person I felt truly understood me. I always worried as a child about something happening to her, to the point I had OCD, thinking if I did something a certain way nothing would happen. I loved/love her so much, the thought that I cannot pick up the phone and talk to her or go over and see her at anytime is sending me into a downward spiral. I am married and I love my wife very much, she is basically the only reason I haven't done anything, because I don't want to cause her pain. I have seen a shrink and I have some antidepressent and anti anxiety medicines but they don't seem to be working through this. I just want to be with her again, I can't imagine living the rest of my life without her.