I just want to die. I have never been truly happy, but now things have gone too far. My life just isn't bearable anymore. I am extremely lonely, no friends, no relationship, I have no future ahead of me, no job prospect, I ruined my career possibilities. There's nothing left to live for. Depression is too strong. Just wish I could be dead. This urge is getting stronger and stronger, just wish I can master the courage to finally end this failed existence. The worst thing is this: I know I'm the one who ruined it. I created my current life of misery. I'm the main reason why I am what I am today.