Tho I have figured out a few things to continue living for, deep down I have this overwhelming urge to commit suicide. I'm not sure why.. but the urges creep up on me a few times a day and strengthen my depression. When I lay down at night I also hope death will take me in my sleep one way or another. Hopefully these thoughts will change when I get a job again and don't feel so totally useless, but even once I get a job I'll still be completely lonely and single. I have a feeling that I'll be single for a long time because of relationship problems in the past. :sad: I feel it's hard to trust anyone anymore. Seems that all I can do is "hope" for something life changing in the future. I have a rather bleak outlook on life.