Hello internet, ill be killing myself soon and i think i want to talk about it. My case is not just another "nobody likes me :sad:" or "im such a looser:unsure:".I guess its little more complicated. Little about myself: Im 19yr, i live in Ukraine(Something like Russia) Kiev(Capital), im a student of technical university, specialising in Information Technologies. Im some sort of geek right now, spending most of the time(read all the time) in internets watching movies/anime and reading comics/manga. Little more about myself: My childhood(5-16yr) i wasnt much different from people surrounding me, i was exploring world in every way i could: i travelled across europe alot, tried alot of hobbies, talked with most bizzare people. Then (16-18yr) my personality was pretty much formed, i developed my own opinion pretty about anything and, point is, my perseption of the world differs greatly from people that surround me.This slowly led to shitload of problems. I lost all of my friends, and didnt want to make new ones, i lost interest in real world, since i learnt the depth and beaty of virtual one, my parents got divorced(not my fault tho) etc And now is the time for me to become "adult", take responsibilities, become a working bee of society and shit. And i just dont feel like it, because it sucks. Life sucks, everyone knows that, its just i dont have the strength to cope with it, i has nothing to depend on.So im thinking to end it, theres alot that i still wont to do(visit Tokyo for example), but fuck that, its not worth it. I thought maybe theres someone to share some wisdom with me, well ill apretiate it.