I am just tired of living a life I feel I was never meant to live. I am 26 years old and have had suicidal thoughts, feelings and attempts since I was 16 years old. Isnt 10 years long enough!! I just want the pain to go away, to feel something other than I what I feel now. Life seems to hard to keep on living. I have a family who I know loves me, but why do I have to hold on for them. Shouldnt I want to hold on for myself. They say it gets easier but I dont know.