Death

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Tearsalone, Jan 12, 2007.

  1. Tearsalone

    Tearsalone Well-Known Member

    When I was 14, something happened that changed my life forever. The constant pillar in my life was taken away from me forever.

    While everyone else was cruel to me, she called me her dolly and showed me love that I've never felt since and never will again.

    She was my mother, the person who gave birth to me. She died on the 30th of August 2003.

    My mother wasn't a perfect person, she had a heavy drinking problem by the time she died, but she gave me something that keeps me alive even today over 3 years since I last saw her face, or held her hand or did the things I wish I could do.

    I miss her alot right now, and I often wonder what things would be like if she'd never have died.

    Its hard knowing that she'll never be there for me for things like my wedding, and if I ever have kids, she's gunna miss my 18th birthday in just over 4 months time now too.

    But I know she wouldn't want me to just throw my life away, maybe thats why I'm still here right now.
     
  2. Allo..

    Allo.. Well-Known Member

    That was beautiful =) Hold on, your mum would have wanted that =)
     
  3. Cheryl

    Cheryl Well-Known Member

    you're right. your mom would not want you to throw your life away. love her. miss her. celebrate her life. and live your life to the fullest. love is stronger than death.

    my father died 8 years ago. it was painful to know that my dad would not walk me down the "wedding isle" and give me to my husband. it was painful to think that he would not ever know his grandchildren. you're right, those are painful realities. so, i feel the pain and the loss. during a significant event ie. birthday, birth, wedding....i say, i miss you daddy (audibly and perhaps to family and friends). i feel the pain and loss. love him. miss him. and can more fully celebrate his life, and the event i'm in or at.

    your 18th birthday is significant. you will miss your mom on this day. tell her you miss her. love her. dream. live. and celebrate the gift of life you've been given.

    God bless you
     
  4. Tearsalone

    Tearsalone Well-Known Member

    Thank you,

    Cheryl, I'm sorry you lost your dad, but I know that your right and just like my mum, he'll be watching over you.

    God Bless.
    Katie.