Not sure where to post this but I always think about death. For the time being I'm not in a suicidal mode, but I think about death daily. I think about what happens when we die. I think about when am I going to die? How am I going to die? I literally lose sleep over this sometimes. I used to watch Ghost Hunters but I can't even watch it anymore because I'm afraid of dying and being stuck as a tormented spirit for eternity. I want to believe in God but don't. I get urges to kill myself frequently but I'm so terrified of death. It is something I worry about and have worried about for years. I just can't seem to shake the thought of death. When I see people I think to myself, that person is going to die eventually. I know people think about their death, but I think about it everyday and usually more than one time a day.