Most days I just curl up into a little ball while in bed, until I have to come to work. My back is stiff and sore most of the time, with the rest of my body not far behind. I just don't see the point anymore, this world is cruel and unforgiving. I'm no use to society or anyone. Everyday is just constant torture. Always wondering if someone is talking behind my back/lack of trust. Everyday is HELL for me. Some people just can't admit that a person would be better off dead. I should start looking for suicide methods online. Hopefully I'll find a painless method.