Hello there... I've been trying to move on with my life, and I think I'm doing pretty well, but after my friend died and I knew about it, in january, I closed myself for other friends I've met here. I feel really bad about it. But I don't trust life anymore, I know everyone's going to die in some point, and many many things that happened this year showed me that. I don't even know if it's right to post this here, but at least I have a place to share my feelings. I'm scared, I don't want to lose anyone else, though I know I will. Waking up almost everyday thinking that someone you love might die due to diseases, life-taking accidents or suicide is TERRIBLE. The agony of thinking is too much.