Dont realy know what to say. These past 6 months of my life have been realy bad. Around new years day, my dad came down with bronciol pneumonia and nearly died,. A couple of days after he went into hospital we had new that my younger cousin had terminal cancer and was only expected to live another 2 months. He was only a year younger than me and was a very nice person, one of the nicest people iv ever known. I thought it coudnt get any worse but it did. Around about April time i got a phone call telling me that a friend id known about 14 years had hanged himself and was dead. He'd hanged himself because he was getting bullied. I feel so bad because i should have been there to help him, i hate those bullies, they are murderers in my eyes. Anyway, my cousin held on for a couple more months and died exactly a month after his 18th birthday at 5:20am.
I was very angry about these happenings, afterall, why should two people have to die so young? It all seemed so unfair and for a short while i hated the world and god.
But over time, though it has only been a couple of months since the deaths, the pain does ease. So if you'v experienced anything like this, then hang on, waite and you will feel better after a while. I still get upset very often but it is getting easier. xxx
I was very angry about these happenings, afterall, why should two people have to die so young? It all seemed so unfair and for a short while i hated the world and god.
But over time, though it has only been a couple of months since the deaths, the pain does ease. So if you'v experienced anything like this, then hang on, waite and you will feel better after a while. I still get upset very often but it is getting easier. xxx
