I've ruined every aspect of my life. I am searching for answers from God in prayer that one day I can get my wife back. I have lost her most likely for good as she is already seeing someone else. I don't know what to do or say anymore that could make anything better. I keep falling and falling and don't know how anymore to hold on. I search for everything and anything to help me just hold on but with everything collapsing, I don't know how to get out of the fire anymore. My wife was always my weakness but at the same time it made me be strong at times. Now, without her, I don't know anything anymore. I just wish the people involved would just back off and let me find strength. Is this truly what God has asked of you all? I want so badly to plan some big moment to try to get her back but I have no money and I feel like I am restrained. I have ruined everything and don't know how to get over it. Question I ask myself now is do I actually take that next step at ending things so the madness will stop? There doesn't seem to be any light at the end of this tunnel anymore and I cannot go on without her. I want so badly to hold her and all I am being is laughed at and humiliated. I wish people would just back off all the game playing. Do they really want this? Seems like people feed off of others misery.