So my therapist/counsellor told me that since a lot of my problems stem from my home life, I can only hope to treat half of my problem unless I bring in my parents. My parents don't know that I used to have (and still kind of do) have an eating disorder, or that I regularly self-harm or that suicide doesn't seem like such an outlandish prospect sometimes. I don't tell them for a reason. I like the way that things are with my dad. He's busy a lot so we get on fine when he isn't. With my mum, it's different. We clash and I don't want to blame it all on her because I'm probably being ridiculously unfair and it's probably all my fault, but when I'm angry it's easier to deal with it because I know that she has nothing on me. She can't twist things if she doesn't know what problems I have. Also, my home is my fortress. I can pretend to be normal and happy when it's just me in my room. I'll constantly have them looking over my shoulder if I open up. If I tell them, my life gets dramatically worse but may get better in the long run (not seems unlikely to me). I don't tell them and my life stays were it is. I stay how I am and continue to be okay sometimes. I'm just asking for advice, so anything you think would be helpful.