Hi, this is my first post here. This looks like a nice community. I hope to make friends with you all and have nice discussions. I feel foolish posting this, sort of, as I haven't heard of anyone else thinking like I do. So well, here it goes. >.<; Tell me if this is odd. I want to kill myself or die in some other fashion, so I can get out of this world. I hate humans, I hate this world, I hate this life. I really wonder what happens when you die. I don't want to be human, I know that much. Animals are nice, but still... I want to know what happens when you die. And what better way to find out than by killing yourself? I'm sure this sounds odd. But then again we are all a little messed up in the head I think. I just don't like it here, I want to get out of this world, and away from humans. I want to know what happens when I die, and since I don't like it here, I don't want to wait for myself to die in 60 years or whatever. What would really be sad though, is if I died, and came back as a human again. That would really piss me off. But then again, I wouldn't know it. I guess it all depends on what you think happens when you die. None of us really know, and I don't think we ever will. But I wouldn't mind killing myself to find out. Although I am chicken >.< But I'll get around to it some time, I hope. Many people say, if you don't like your life, change it. Well, I would have to say to them, it can't be changed in the way I want it to be changed. This world is completely screwed up. Humans are generally evil, and we are all killing each other anyway. Why not kill myself? First of all, money. What is the deal with money? I think it's the stupidest thing around! Money truly is the root of human evil. People are killed over money. The world is destroyed over money. Money is evil. Humans are evil. You should be allowed to kill yourself. You should be allowed to kill someone who is on their deathbed if they want you to. But noooo. Everyone wants to save you. Everyone wants to save everyone else. They want to keep you alive when your 90 years old and have so many problems your confined to a hospital bed. That is so so stupid. Why? Really... why? Let them go. If someone wants to leave this world, let them leave in peace. Don't try to keep them alive. If they are trying to kill themselves they are meant to kill themselves. Stop intervening. I really am sorry, this seems to have turned into a rant of sorts. I just have a lot on my chest. Things I really don't like about this world and the people in it. This is all why I want to die and leave this place. And since I obviously can't depend on anyone else to do the job for me, I will have to do it myself. But no, I'm not going to jump up, go out, and try to kill myself. I believe an opportunity will present itself in due time. I do not believe in God, Heaven, and Hell. But I do believe there is some type of higher power, as we are higher than animals. And that there is fate and destiny... AND freewill. Your life is planned out for you, but you do alter that plan. So however you alter it, it is still a plan. So for instance, if you want to kill yourself, like me for example, and you do succeed, your life path ended at you killing yourself. Meaning it was MEANT to happen. Please reply, I want to hear your thoughts. I know I probably don't sound normal. I'm sorry. I just have a lot of thoughts in my head. What do you think?