I've noticed something lately, and I think deep down, I really want my mom to notice my cutting, and get me help for my depression/anger/SHing. First I noticed it when I was done cutting and then thought "I'm not going to cover them up" so I've been walking around all day with absolutely nothing covering my arm, just trying to hide them from view when I talk to people. Then I was talking to my mom in her room, she was sitting down, and I leaned forward with my totally scared up bare arm RIGHT in her face to grab her lotion that I didn't even want. It was a 100% involuntary move, it just "happened". She didn't see, though. For a split second when I was in the middle of doing it, I felt panicked..and then when it was over and she didn't even notice, I felt disappointed for a minute. :mellow: guess my subconscience is getting tired of this. have any of you ever done something like that, without thinking about it? or almost WANTED someone to know, so they'd help you?