Just had my depression deepen. I do not care about anything now. My therapist is upset I spend so much time on these forums. She thinks it is halting any progress I could be making. I am afraid she may give me an ultimatum either cut down on the forums or stop seeing her. I have been seeing her for 7 years now. Kills me to think it may come down to no more. On top of this, I recently got triggered big time by someone who is being forced from her job. Reminds me too much of what happened to me three years ago. This is not a safe depression for me. I am feeling urges to burn myself and possibly the beginning of suicidal urges. I have tried writing out the emotions that have come back up. The emotions are still there.