I think I've had about all I can take, my way of life has been destroyed my dreams crushed my quality of life is going to suck forever. I've been thinking about finally giving up a lot lately, already tried a couple times this year since I got really sick. It makes me sad in a way I don't really want to go but at the same time the pain I feel mentally and emotionally is so great its become unbearable. I'm just hanging on by the skin of my teeth for friends and family and of course the little survival instinct left in my body helps. I have to admit I'm rather afraid of stepping into the unknown all the things I'll miss and how sad , but at the same time once I'm gone its not like any of that will matter to me.