So tonight I am planning on going out and trying to socialize.* You know do that thing I should have been doing every weekend since August.* However, I run into a problem of me convincing myself that there is no point.* Even with my success at the anime convention I attended... I still find myself freaking out because I am going to be going some place out of my element.* That is my plan at least.* I have to get out and go to a place where people are actively social.* So I am going to go to a bar.* However, I run through my mind and say But I don't know any bars.* Then I start thinking about how my anime convention was... well an anime convention.* I knew everyone there at least held an interest in anime. Then I say I have not read everything in my book. * Yes I have a book on socializing, more specifically wooing women.* I have not read the interaction part of that book.* I try too, but then I get side-tracked.* Totally my fault, but it still sucks.* I know the overarching views of all the various steps... but I still like to know details.. that is one thing that freaks me out... another thing that freaks me out is being out of my element.* I have never been a very social person.* So couple me being in an unfamiliar environment and not being social... my mind just naturally tries to convince me that staying home and getting drunk is the best answer... * I need to text the guy who said he wanted a crew to go out with... he said he was going out this weekend... but I have not heard back from him on the forum.* He has read the book and applied its practices... at the same time... I am afraid he will see how much I suck and give up on me.* I don't want to just go out to sit out there and stare off into space for a couple of hours... I need to find a place with few distractions.* If I go to a place with a pool table or something like that.. well I will just spend money and time on that. Then the evening will be an even bigger failure.* Because I will have just played games and spent money to do so... I could have done that at home. * I guess my problem is that I know what I need to do.* I know that by staying in and succumbing to fear I am only hurting myself.* At the same time I have no idea how or where I can find the courage to go out.* Part of me wants to go out after I work out.* That way I can ride that high I get from working out.* However, by the time I would be heading out to the bar, after cleaning up and showering and such.* That high would go away.* Then I am pretty sure my anxiety and the low would make things worse.... * Man I am really freaking out... I always ramble when that happens.* So any advice on how to get over these issues would be nice... thanks.