If I was a piece of machinary i'd be decommissioned. If i was anything other than a person i'd be destroyed and replaced with something that actually WORKS. Normally i'd try at least ensure that if i post on here its decently written but right now i am not feeling especially coherent. I've decided I'm done. I was all set to try to work out what the problem is - poll a few people who know me and get and answer to the "what is WRONG with me" question. Try to address the situation. Unfortunately it seems that the answer is that i defective but nobody can tell me how/why. I'm just... not very likable. And its just one of those things. So I give up. Apologies to all those I have irritated/annoyed.