Now, before I go on....
It's being a long time since I was really suicidal. I really love living, and breathing, and everything else.
But I am so alone. Disconnected from other people. Stuck in a horrible rut.
I know, other people have it worse. But I'm just so alone. Even when there's people around me....
Does that make sense? And I've being single for three and a half years. I'm not a supermodel, but I don't think I'm that hideous either. I read an article last night saying that only fault I'm single is mine alone.....what could I do differently? I feel like the least desirable person in the world....I wish there was someone who would make me feel like a woman again, desirable, beautiful, girls, you know what I mean...when you have that sort of man....
I really miss that. I just feel so dead right now....like a zombie....I don't get any attention, any affection, nothing...
And I don't know how to change it. Maybe I'm just not a desirable girl that someone would take on dates, give flowers to, sweet talk....
It's being a long time since I was really suicidal. I really love living, and breathing, and everything else.
But I am so alone. Disconnected from other people. Stuck in a horrible rut.
I know, other people have it worse. But I'm just so alone. Even when there's people around me....
Does that make sense? And I've being single for three and a half years. I'm not a supermodel, but I don't think I'm that hideous either. I read an article last night saying that only fault I'm single is mine alone.....what could I do differently? I feel like the least desirable person in the world....I wish there was someone who would make me feel like a woman again, desirable, beautiful, girls, you know what I mean...when you have that sort of man....
I really miss that. I just feel so dead right now....like a zombie....I don't get any attention, any affection, nothing...
And I don't know how to change it. Maybe I'm just not a desirable girl that someone would take on dates, give flowers to, sweet talk....
