I posted here before saying i wanted to die because i got diagnosed with a painful chronic incurable illness a few months ago.I tried very hard to pick myself up and keep going (using the words of support here) and was doing ok. Until three days ago. I woke up in horrendous excrutiating pain, the same burning pain, but in a completely different part of my body now. I go to the doctor and he tells me that I now have another illness, because apparantly what is happening to me is that my immune system is really breaking down and I am now getting all these 'itis' diseases. I had an eating disorder for so long because of all the abuse I went through went young. I tried to get over that, only to get diagnosed with one illness and now another and now also told I will most likely get IBS and endometriosis (already showing signs of them). The food I loved to eat is gone, no alcohol again, sex is painful, no energy to do things because of the restricted diet and all the different things I have to take, no joy in anything now, no interest in any of my posessions. I have made my will and am making sure my husband and mother will be ok. I am gone, this brutal terrible painful life has done me in. I am sorry to be posting this, I had a little hope for a few weeks and now all this, in just one week.