Lovely times with my family during Christmas Eve and today. I put on a good show. Got such special, beautiful, meaningful gifts...how I love them! Adore them actually but hate myself. Didn’t take my klonopin...maybe that will change my mindset and keep me here another day. Meeting with therapist on Wednesday. So, so tired physically and mentally.....fear of death and hell keeps me here also plus I have had a few ‘good’ days. things will never be like they used to be though....so what’s the sense?
peace to all....
peace to all....