it starts again ohhhh she is home then my twin i don't think i can do this again. shaking so bad wanting to run but glad there here because that is what they need. I told them all there it would be me who leaves this time when all hell lets loose here. i will try my best to get them both help AGAIN then im done im tired they don't want to get well they sabotage every bit of help i get them. All my energy is gone so stupid to think i could help them change them icant because i now know it not what they wanted Denial abt everything see clearly now and i just am not ready to deal with it all again god i just can't.