Hy,first of all,I apologies for my writing mistakes, I'm a foreigner, and I don't speak english , so excuse my way of writing. I'm thinking about suicide for a year. Anytime when I want to take my life , something is stopping me, and I can't understand what.A year before I went to see a terapist , because I wanted to change my thoughts about life , and my lifestyle, after that , I got more depressed because I find out , about my past, about how imature my parents were. ( my dad is dead) .So , even if I tried hard , to believe that is something to live for , everytime life showed me the other side of a coint.People are not to trust , everytime you are alone.And love, or carring is something that is just fantasy.Is a dream , a wish , that everybody wants, but they don't make it come true. Every way I go , I see just egoes, I can't see a beautifull thing , or thought come true. whithought a deal envolved. "I do you something if it's good for you too, after that we say goodbay".Thay don't realise that things like that , are not ok. Everybody will feel that loss after they'll go , and where is gonna end this stuff, ? what will be the final thought? That you allways will be allone? And everything that you know about feelings is jusy a game, about who is able to survive?Anyway , I don't think that I shold even bring children in this world.