I havnt been here in awhile but I'm back to my paralyzing thoughts and feelings. I find no happiness in any aspect of my life. I don't feel good mentally, emotionally, or physically. I'm tired of faking my life every single day and trying to act happy just so other people don't worry. I don't think suicide is a selfish act at all. People preach all the time that all you have is yourself and its true so if u chose to leave, it isn't selfish. I'm sure ppl would rather me die if they truly knew how I felt inside. I'm already dead, all I ever feel is constant pain n getting out of bed everyday is a struggle.