I'm taking my ex to court, to try and get him done for statutory rape, indecent assault and rape. He's admitted to the use of force and pressurising, but not "rape" which I don't understand, as that is basically rape. I'm scared about court - scared of how his solicitor will make me sound. Probably like a slut. Probably as if I'm lying or bitter about the break up. I'm not - but I'll be extremely worried. At the moment I'm so vulnerable; I'm on anti depressants, have major anxiety and self esteem issues. My confidence is rock bottom. I can't go out of the house without someone with me, as I think he's going to kill me or something. I am so scared of everything. I'm really worried about court. Will they really be harsh on me?