I don’t even know where to start and I probably don’t even deserve to have anyone listen. But right now I’ve got no one to really talk to. My therapist is on holidays. Everything is once again falling apart. In summary, I am going to be made redundant in September. If I can’t find a new job I’ll lose my home. My uncle tried to burn his house down while he was in it and instead of being taken to a mental facility, he is being charged with arson and is in prison. My best friend who I love so god damn much, is not well but she won’t talk to me so I have no idea what’s going on and I need her. My parents are moving interstate and my grandpa is dying and I don’t think it’s possible to despise myself any more than I do. I've been completey sucked dry and i have nothing left to give. I’m tired of fighting. I’m tired of hurting. I just fucking want a way out of all this. Please tell me what to do. Please help me. I beg of you to make this stop.