I am scared of the fall. I'm bipolar and on meds and seeing a shrink and the meds are working. But i know there will be a fall - a depressed part of the cycle. I feel it peeking through some nights when i wanna cut "just a little".... I am scared. I dont want to fall. Maybe i fell already and i'm not done falling? I havent been taking care of myself at all. Or eating. And i sleep way too much. I dont want to live but i do because my death would hurt my family. I think i'm in depression now but its not too bad. I hope it doesnt get worse.