My girlfriend has been acting weird lately, I knew she was cheating on me, but then I found out who and I'm totally losing it right now. She wasn't talking to me much lately, and she keeps bringing up my friend (well, fuck him, some friend he was), who's a total creep, the guy has attempted rape a few times in the past, he doesn't care in the leats bit about her, I know rightnow he's just using her. And she's been going on and on about how nice he is, and today she says she's having a big heart to heart conversation with him, and that he's an awesome person to talk to. Meanwhile she isn't talking to me at all. A few times now she's stood me up for some other guy (wasn't sure who 'til now), but after the way she went on today I just lost it. I don't think she knows how I feel about her, I don't think she'd care either. She won't answer the phone if I call, she won't reply to me online, probably to busy talking to everyone's favorite right now. And she told me their conversation was about "nothing" so I said, no one has a heart to heart about nothing, then she says "true, it's been a depressing day" then i asked what she meant, and she hasn't said a word since. She fucking hates me now and I have no idea why, I've treated her like gold, unlike the greasy fucking pigs she's always cheating on me with. Whenever she cheats one and I try to move on she just lures me back, I don't know how, it's like some serious mindfuck I can't get around, but everytime it works, and everytime I end up feelings worse after she's cheated on me. So this is it, I'm tired of feeling shitty. I plan on getting my hands on whatever drugs I can and going on a bender until I die. Fuck man, if she doesn't want me around why doesn't she just say so, it'd be easier than this. I can't believe she's going for him either. Ted fucking Bundy would be a better companion. Before I bite the dust I'm going to knock the shit out of him. Now I'm going to go get tanked, because this is too much for me atm.