hi. i am 14. i am feeling very depressed and suicidal these days. the reason? this might sound extremely dumb and stupid but it is because of severe acne i suffer from. my acne is so severe that its sickening to look at. i have acne scars all over my cheeks and chin and some on my forehead as well as imflamed active acne. i have gone to an unlimited amount of dermatoligists and none of them have been able to help me although i have been on several drugs, done multiple laser surgeries, chemical peels, the list just goes on and on and on. i cry hystericaly every night. i am so self cautious i hate it. if i told people i was depresed and feeling suicidal they would be shocked because at school i am happy and optimistic. but truth is, inside i'm dying and in pain all the time. at school i wear layers of foundation to cover it up although i no it's terrible for my skin but what the hell am i suposed to do not go to school w/ out it? i feel so damn UGLY. i can't keep my head up when i go w/ out foundation on to my dermatoligist cos then ppl stare. god. i hate this. some days i feel like im going crazy i just begin to hurt my self. sometimes i just throw myself against the wall and idk it feels good in a way. god i want to talk to someone about it but i cant. i cna't talk to my friends they wouldn't fucking understnad. i cry to my family, but i don't want to anymore because it stresses them out so much my mom cries every night because of me. goddamit i fucking wana kill myself every night i dont want to cry anymore it hurts to cry. i hate it. i hate this. whats the point of life i hate this. i can't stop crying. i want to quit school and just stay at home until my skin improves. i no i need help..i need a counsler or soemthing.