Ive only been in a handful of serious relationships, im 18 years old. About a year ago I began dating a girl online, for the first time, We met in a chat room, she lived rather near me, so we met up once every now and then on a weekend, she was 17. this went on for a few months, the two of us fell deeply in love with each other, her dad eventually found out ( through her brother, who isnt much better then her dad ) and told her she couldn't talk to me anymore. She killed herself. For the last 6 months most nights I dream about her. and wake up wanting to kill myself because it isn't real. I don't know what to do, Or rather or not I should do it.