Ok, So i have alot of problems. Some from the past and some from the present. My life hasn't exactly been a fairy tale. From a young age i was forced in to a life of choices which a small child should not have to make. Ans having someone in my life who mentally bullied me from a young age till my middle teens. My mum was my rock during my young age but when i was 16 she was nearly murdered by the same person who mentally bullied me. The problems i have now are far more complex. The solitary i feel now is far worse than anything i have felt in my life. I knwo i have freinds and family but it doesnt seem to me that they understand: that no matter how many people are around me i still feel so alone. I have never been to a doctor or a pshyc or anything. I have no reason to smile anymore. Nothing seems worth waiting for or applying myself towards. I hate this. Why am i so lonely when i have family and friends around me who i know care?