Well after reading alot of storys & problems on this forum i feel that mine is nothing but none the less it still gets me down and i sometimes feel that i should just throw it all away.
The past 5 years of my of my life have been a total let down too me and no matter how hard i try i still cant seem too get back on track.
It all started off when i was in a steady relationship with a very good well paid job that i liked and had always wanted too do. I had my own house and i put everything thing i had into it and gave everything i could too the girl i was with. . . . . Then once coming back from a weekend away i got told from a guy that my fiancee was sleeping with my best mate, Well this went on for days and too cut a long story short she was not just sleeping with him but sleeping with him and his brother aswell as another friend (All @ Different Times & Not Together)
I lost everything from the house and all what it had aswell as my very well paid job as i felt i just could not cope anymore. The doctor put me on tablets and things but i feel that they just made me worse.
After months of talking about death and things i finaly moved on and got myself sorted (Or So I Thought)
I got myself a new job and and started to go out and do things with my friends but i knew deep down that they where all talking about how i was fucked over and what had happened too me.
Anyway i moved on and met another girl who was perfect. . . She was everything i could ever have wanted and more. . . I never fell into any trap and never got a house or anything as i did not want too get tied down.
She made me happy and she claims that i was far too good for her and i made her so so happy also. . . . . Yip that happy she done exactly what the ex had done and too make it worse i even seen e-mails from her too the other guy and for teh whole 2 years i was with her she had been ripping the piss and slagging me off saying how much of a loser i was cause i let girls walk all over me and treat me like dirt.
well we split and 11 months down the line (today) i have been fine untill her 2 friends come over talking too me and going about how my ex is doing this and how she is doing that and how i was a foul and its really got me down.
I have no time for females as i just get the feeling they piss me about and laugh at me. I sit alone in my room just thinking that maybe if the first time around i did carry out what i was going too do i woudl not have all these problems of trying too be the happy perfect person that everyone things i am.
Im sick of talking too people too as they always say the same thing over and over and it drives me mad and i am not going back too the doctors either.
The way i see it i have my options of
A, Be a very very lone person
B, Take no notice and keep bashing on and fighting it
C, End the lot
The past 5 years of my of my life have been a total let down too me and no matter how hard i try i still cant seem too get back on track.
It all started off when i was in a steady relationship with a very good well paid job that i liked and had always wanted too do. I had my own house and i put everything thing i had into it and gave everything i could too the girl i was with. . . . . Then once coming back from a weekend away i got told from a guy that my fiancee was sleeping with my best mate, Well this went on for days and too cut a long story short she was not just sleeping with him but sleeping with him and his brother aswell as another friend (All @ Different Times & Not Together)
I lost everything from the house and all what it had aswell as my very well paid job as i felt i just could not cope anymore. The doctor put me on tablets and things but i feel that they just made me worse.
After months of talking about death and things i finaly moved on and got myself sorted (Or So I Thought)
I got myself a new job and and started to go out and do things with my friends but i knew deep down that they where all talking about how i was fucked over and what had happened too me.
Anyway i moved on and met another girl who was perfect. . . She was everything i could ever have wanted and more. . . I never fell into any trap and never got a house or anything as i did not want too get tied down.
She made me happy and she claims that i was far too good for her and i made her so so happy also. . . . . Yip that happy she done exactly what the ex had done and too make it worse i even seen e-mails from her too the other guy and for teh whole 2 years i was with her she had been ripping the piss and slagging me off saying how much of a loser i was cause i let girls walk all over me and treat me like dirt.
well we split and 11 months down the line (today) i have been fine untill her 2 friends come over talking too me and going about how my ex is doing this and how she is doing that and how i was a foul and its really got me down.
I have no time for females as i just get the feeling they piss me about and laugh at me. I sit alone in my room just thinking that maybe if the first time around i did carry out what i was going too do i woudl not have all these problems of trying too be the happy perfect person that everyone things i am.
Im sick of talking too people too as they always say the same thing over and over and it drives me mad and i am not going back too the doctors either.
The way i see it i have my options of
A, Be a very very lone person
B, Take no notice and keep bashing on and fighting it
C, End the lot