Just.. very down right now... Not exactly sure reasoning.. I didn't hardly get out of house today.. I rode my skateboard around a little.. But.. Maybe I'm down because I want to do something enjoyable.. And Idk.. Some days I get so sick of being home.. Just want one day I can go out.. have fun.. But even then.. What is "fun?" I can never seem to figure that out.. Guess since I didn't really ever have "fun" as a kid, I don't even know now.. I feel like crying.. Maybe another reason could be my bros death anniversary.. Its the 28th.. He would have been 19 this year... on the 29th... sigh.. I want to cry.. but all I do is feel a lump in my throat.. feel low.. and the anxiety of being inside is a bit annoying.. even riding the skateboard did hardly anything.. I want to eat.. All I've had today was some top-rammen noodles.. Just not motivated to make food right now.. not motivated to clean.. nothing.. just fml.. :blub: