It's interesting that the more depressed or the more lonely you become, the more people want nothing to do with you, which makes you even more depressed and lonely, which makes people like you less, and on and on. I've actually gotten pretty good at hiding it from having so much practice. People who see me everyday think I'm a friendly happy person with a great sense of humor. I often wonder what their reaction would be if they found out I killed myself. This is why so many people are baffled and surprised when someone they know commits suicide, because they didn't see what that person was going through, the person hid it. They HAD to in order to fit in. Basically your options are to be depressed and have everyone know it but no one likes you, or be depressed and hide it and people like you but think you're the exact opposite of how you really are.