I recently had a severe depression episode with suicide thoughts. Now I've been seeing a psychiatrist & am on zoloft & celexa. The psychiatrist pointed out that I've been suffering from minor depression for the last 20 years, based on what I'd told her. Over the last 1.5 years, when things began to happen that finally broke the dam, I've felt very apathetic to a lot of things. Work is the main one. I don't care if my performance sucked; didn't care that the last few raises wouldn't help my poor financial situation. I certainly didn't care if they fired me, though I wanted to be laid-off & I don't see that happening. It's hard to see a bright future with the depression, and I've accepted the fact that I may live out my life alone, without a family of my own. This should bother me, but it doesn't. It's like I've accepting my fate, & I'm too tired to fight it. My family has been helping me get back on my feet by getting me to do what I need to do. Even with a to-do list, I find it hard to follow it. It gets put off to the next day, or it gets half done. I realize the severity of the consequences, and immediate action is nedded, but I just can't focus my mind to care a little more to do the job. Anyone else having this situation?