I am afraid I am going to lose control and hurt myself to much that I can't hide it any longer. My depression doesn't seem to be get better, if anything it's getting worse. To the point part of me thinks I should go to the hospital but the other part says not to because my family will flip out. They think that I am making something out of nothing and that nothing is wrong. I stay away from telling them anything. I have enough things going on that I don't need them to bring me down any farther.