Depression has only one cure.

When I woke this morning I wasn't scared
as I realised not a person in the world cared.
I'd always been on my own
always the person who was unknown.

I don't want attention, I don't want care
I don't even want someone to share
I don't want anything in life.
not now that I have my knife.

I don't want a family, I don't want a friend
then it won't hurt when I do want I intend
Not that it matters anymore, I'm past that line
god has finally given me a sign.

I don't need people to tell me they understand
or reach out they hand
I don't need anyone
to tell me this war can be won.

All my life I've been the unknown
always feeling and being so alone
the person that sits on the outside
hiding away as she has no pride

Now that god has given me a sign
I know what I have to do so I can be fine
he knows there's nothing keeping me here
He knows I have to run, never to feel fear

Friends and Family won't even know
as communication broke down along time ago
Weeks will go past
before they realise the other week was my last.

 

please god let me in

Look in the mirror and what do I see?
looking back, are the signs of a battered mind.
a battered, twisted and stained heart
a life, that I just can't depart.

The eyes, show the pain inside
this thing no longer has any pride.
a scar, when she once again lost control
she no longer has a soul.

A broken thing, that can't be repaired.
cause the girl is just to scared.
she doesn't know what to do
instead she runs and hides.

Curl up in a ball and protect herself
I wish I could just kill oneself.
then the pain would be gone
I would then be free.

The lord won't open the gates
this life is a punishment, is this my fate
why won't he let the pain end
why won't he be a friend.

Please lord I'm begging you
give me one more chance and open the door.
let me in, free me from this pain
let me start again.

Please lord..I can't take anymore.
please lord..free me from the chains
please lord..I can't take no more pain
please lord..i'm ready to go.

 

Re: please god let me in

Woah. Being somewhat of a writer myself, I can appreciate how good those are. Well written. Most impressive.

 

I have been reading many of your poems that you've posted in the past, and I must say that you are an incredible poet. You definitely have a gift!:goodjob:

Don't give up on life yet. Please talk to me whenever you feel you need someone to talk to. You can pm me.

Lots of Love.

 

that was beautifull...i love it...and i hope writing it helped you in the same way me writing helps me