The darkness surrounds me nothing around but darkness People around me I watch them walk on Coldness feels no warmth from blankets no warmth from words coldness, emptyness Trapped in this world no-one else can see just my thoughts, my feelings, and me. I stand still, looking on a black and white movie jumbled, confused, moving, but images blurred no colours in my life no reds, yellows, pinks or blues just a black and white movie is all it shows. No red from the anger no green from envy no blue from sadness no pinks for love. I'm to tired my energy drained I'm going to bed now night everyone. My friends & family won't answer my calls God has turned he's back on me Everywhere I go, the door gets slamed. I sit here now, wondering where it went wrong. Why am I now on my own, why when I scream does no sound come out why when I cry, do no tears fall why am I even here now. Why am I breathing, why didn't I die why didn't I take enough to kill me Why is my heart beating, when I feel nothing Why do I have a heart, when its never felt loved. I give up, I give in. I want to die, I don't want to be alone anymore.