I don't know how I can fight this off. But one of my triggering things is heat. Really bad heat. Like today. The hottest day of the year so far. It's going to feel like it's between 105-110!! And while I do have air in my house, I dont have it in my car atm. And 45 miles driving back home in this heat scares me to some extent. And of course that starts things spiraling. Now I worry (completely needlessly) that my car will overheat. I worry that my electric bill will be so huge I won't be able to pay it when it comes next month. And then I start thinking that my life will fall apart and that gets me even worse. Stupid fucking depression!!!!