I suffer from extreme depression. I have no energy at all, and I pretty much just slog through the day. I have lost almost all care for my appearance. I haven't shaved in weeks, and I don't remember the last time I had a shower- it was probably about a month ago. Every single day is complete misery. I don't work, I don't go to school, I have no friends anymore. I just spend every day crying and wishing I could die.
My life is horrible, but the intense depression makes it so much worse. I can't do anything anymore. All I want to do is watch tv, surf the internet or sleep. I just can't do anything productive. Even the smallest thing feels like climbing a mountain.
The only way I can explain it is that I am constantly low. I never, ever feel happy. I have felt sad and depressed for months and months. I finally told my parents about this and they don't want me to get antidepressants. Since I don't work, I have no money at all, so if they don't want me to have them then I don't get them.
I just don't know what to do anymore. Nothing is worth feeling like this. Even if my life is going to get better like everyone says, it's not worth feeling like this for years. I can't pull myself out of this black hole, because I don't have the will. I just keep slipping farther and farther down. I don't want to know what happens when I hit the bottom...
My life is horrible, but the intense depression makes it so much worse. I can't do anything anymore. All I want to do is watch tv, surf the internet or sleep. I just can't do anything productive. Even the smallest thing feels like climbing a mountain.
The only way I can explain it is that I am constantly low. I never, ever feel happy. I have felt sad and depressed for months and months. I finally told my parents about this and they don't want me to get antidepressants. Since I don't work, I have no money at all, so if they don't want me to have them then I don't get them.
I just don't know what to do anymore. Nothing is worth feeling like this. Even if my life is going to get better like everyone says, it's not worth feeling like this for years. I can't pull myself out of this black hole, because I don't have the will. I just keep slipping farther and farther down. I don't want to know what happens when I hit the bottom...