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i am in a bad place right now, mentally. i have horrible depression. i have been sleeping like 12 hours a day just because its the only thing that relieves the pain.
i just can't deal with this anymore. it totally saps my will to do anything. i should be looking for a job, but i have no energy. i thought i could get over it but i can't. its just like a huge black cloud over my head that never goes away. i have hopes and dreams for the future, but i can't see a future anymore.
i have depression because i'm lonely. i have social anxiety disorder which makes it very difficult to make friends or even meet new people. i have zero friends, and i have never had any close friends. the worst thing is that i didn't even know i had this disorder until it was too late. i am 21 and i've never had a friend or a girlfriend. i've had no one that i could actually share my real feelings with. do you have any idea how hard it is to keep everything bottled up?
i appreciate the offers of people from here to talk to me, buts its just not what i need. i need someone in real life that i can personally talk to; someone that actually cares about my feelings and will listen to me. my family won't understand; i already tried that. i am left to stew in my own misery and put my pathetic whinings on a suicide forum.
embarassing thing, but i dont even care anymore. you'd think that someone with horrible depression would have no libido. well, I do, and its higher than ever. i am almost climbing up the walls. if i could just make my sex drive go away, i would do it. social anxiety disorder and a high libido do not mix well, apparently.
i am a waste of life. i don't even deserve to be alive. we weren't given life just so we could sleep all day and think about how we could die. i just don't know how to make this go away. i don't have cutting, or drugs, or booze to get me through it. i just wallow in it on my own.
i wish i could just fall into a coma right now. i just dont want to feel anything anymore...
i just can't deal with this anymore. it totally saps my will to do anything. i should be looking for a job, but i have no energy. i thought i could get over it but i can't. its just like a huge black cloud over my head that never goes away. i have hopes and dreams for the future, but i can't see a future anymore.
i have depression because i'm lonely. i have social anxiety disorder which makes it very difficult to make friends or even meet new people. i have zero friends, and i have never had any close friends. the worst thing is that i didn't even know i had this disorder until it was too late. i am 21 and i've never had a friend or a girlfriend. i've had no one that i could actually share my real feelings with. do you have any idea how hard it is to keep everything bottled up?
i appreciate the offers of people from here to talk to me, buts its just not what i need. i need someone in real life that i can personally talk to; someone that actually cares about my feelings and will listen to me. my family won't understand; i already tried that. i am left to stew in my own misery and put my pathetic whinings on a suicide forum.
embarassing thing, but i dont even care anymore. you'd think that someone with horrible depression would have no libido. well, I do, and its higher than ever. i am almost climbing up the walls. if i could just make my sex drive go away, i would do it. social anxiety disorder and a high libido do not mix well, apparently.
i am a waste of life. i don't even deserve to be alive. we weren't given life just so we could sleep all day and think about how we could die. i just don't know how to make this go away. i don't have cutting, or drugs, or booze to get me through it. i just wallow in it on my own.
i wish i could just fall into a coma right now. i just dont want to feel anything anymore...
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