Where do I start this. Over the past year I've pretty much had my mind collapse on me. Things I thought were true became false. Emotions I have became meaningless. I went from struggles with OCD, panic, hypochondria, to being overmedicated and have suicidal depression. I even realize how meaningless my thoughts are and that they too can be tampered with. Now I question everything. My faith in god or even an afterlife was shaken causing me to dissociate. It was as if my brain couldn't process the realization that there might not be anything left for me. So that's where I sit now. I'm medicated now to where the depression is under control, but I've totally lost any hope in life or humanity. I don't feel any purpose and the meaning of life alludes me. I wish I could go back to a time when I was younger and didn't think about death and suicide so often. Not thinking is blissful. Is there anyone left with faith that can cheer me up?