Empty, drained, tired, no fight left, body has shut down, mind is in overload. I've 4 anti-depressants left but I won't be going back for more, there's no point I've been on them since May and I still get extremely depressed, I still feel suicidal, I still self harm, I still can't cope, I'm always tired, I have no energy, my concentration is shoot, appetite gone (not a bad thing as I'm fat anyway), no intrest in life..go to work for a few hours give up go home, sit on sofa or lay in bed and do nothing. I've a constent headache, feel sick all the time, my cold won't go, infections after infections. self inflicted cuts won't heal. I'm told it takes time life will improve I don't believe it, I can't feel that it will. I don't have the energy to kill myself as planned for saturday, I don't have the energy to argue, to fight, to talk. I give up, and just wait. I've not been on SF cause the words I have are nothing but empty and useless, I've not spoken to anyone even at work as there's nothing to say. I might as well be a ghost, just waiting for the white light to guide me to that better place.