How are you all doing? Hope great! I haven't been on much because I'm taking college courses now, and it is very time consuming! I have something bothering me, wanted you all's input on this. When a person tries to kill themselves, does it make that person crazy? I have never thought that just because someone gets to the point that they can't cope with life anymore. I think anyone, if their life got bad enough, could get to such a point. but.... we are still labeled as being nuts. how do you get that label off of you? Even if you don't get depressed anymore, your still going to carry that past history issue.. What do you do to escape it? Stupid question !!! I went to the doctor yesterday, this wasn't my doctor but a PA that works under him. I have an infection and it was making me dog tired. Where I'm studying, I can't be feeling that way. Well the nurse tells me that this PA wants to know if I am still taking toradol, and I'm like yes. I get this online, not through my dr. He brings up therapy and asks me why I'm not going anymore, and this and that. Whatever, paid no attention to it. It's charted in my medical records that I have substance abuse. Isn't this someone who is addicted to drugs? He mentioned where I overdosed on them, and get them online.. Now I have taken too many meds in the past to control my pain, he didn't mention this, but it isn't like I didn't go ask them to help me, the pain was extreme. They did not exactly do anything to help to make sure I'd be okay. Where I have a connective tissue disease, they did not control my symptoms, they did not acknowledge the problem for an extremely long time, I was left so sick I'd rather be dead then alive, so I get these medications online and finally start feeling better. I just got the for sure diagnosis the other day, and that wasn't through a rheumatologist (the doctor that should), it was through my neurologist. He let me know under no circumstances that I have it and why. Sure, may be wrong of me to do this. But it's no more wrong than them not doing their job and not keeping my symptoms under control. I should not had to of lived that way. To make all this worse,, when the doctor left the room, I could sware I heard him tell someone something about the nut jobs that come in there, and that is right after he was done talking to me. I can't 100% sware he said that, but that is what it sounded like. What should I do? Just keep my mouth shut and pretend it didn't happen?