describe your average day PLEASE... help me cope

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Ripx, Dec 22, 2008.

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  1. Ripx

    Ripx Well-Known Member

    please describe to me what it is you think that makes your life utter bullshit.

    I'll start (obviously...)
    wake up (could be 10 pm, could be noon, i don't have the ability to keep a schedule), lay in bed awake for an hour or two. get up, go eat something. then, smoke some weed, followed by an hour or so (until the high wares off) of either watching tv, playing video games, or listening to talk radio on my cell phone (either the alex jones show, or alan watt's cutting through the matrix.) Then once that is done, my will to remain awake begins to diminish quite rapidly, and i become extremely restless. This is usually followed by hours on end of just sitting, or lying down in the same spot, wondering how my life got to where it is, only to come back to the same conclusion, or realization as always. Which is, that my albinism and bad eyesight, and overall physical appearance lead to certain experiences in certain situations which ultimately shaped who i was, and am, psychologically.

    I was always this way. Eventually, i started smoking weed (3 years ago), and now ive become jaded towards it. so now what? what will be my newest form of escapism? i guess it is true that marijuana is a gateway drug. Because it can only lead you so far down the path before it begins to lose its ability to carry you, so you are forced to adopt newer, more powerful drugs which can carry you even further, until you get to the point where you are sucking dick, or killing for "the high." Either that, or face reality. But the way i see it, this is my reality, this is who i am. A pathetic loser, as was my destiny from the onset.

    I'm 22 years old people, and i spend my days predominantly sitting and doing absolutely NOTHING. not even watching tv, just... nothing, literally nothing.
  2. wastedmylife

    wastedmylife Well-Known Member

    wake up around 9PM, go on the computer from 9PM -11AM, go to sleep, hope I die in my sleep, wake up countless times in my sleep because of physical problems, wake up and repeat

    And I eat something sometimes when I am up
  3. Ripx

    Ripx Well-Known Member

    how old are you?

    Yea i'd pretty much be doing the same thing you described if i didnt find everything to be so boring. everything except world history that is.
  4. wastedmylife

    wastedmylife Well-Known Member

    29 unfortunatly, I am not sure what my plan is but I dont have a future, 2 years ago you'd think I was the happiest nicest person in the world and now I am essentially dead, I am not sure what I am going to do with my life but I cant see it ending pretty
  5. LightInTheDarkestNight

    LightInTheDarkestNight Well-Known Member

    Wake up eat, watch TV or play video games, eat some more.. suffer through insane fatigue.

    Basically try not to think about all my health problems physical/ mental. With chronic fatigue and whatnot I find even cooking food when I am really hungry is a huge chore I sometimes ask my mom to make me eggs or something.

    Lately the only time I go out is to get my allergy shot once a week or to go to doctors apointments, it's pretty sad I just don't have the energy and I have visible health probs too that people don't understand.
  6. LenaLunacy

    LenaLunacy Well-Known Member

    It depends on whether i'm going to college or not.
    College day,
    Wake up, 6am. Straighten hair, dress, make-up, downstairs to drink tea and brush my teeth.
    Get the bus at 7am, 2 hour bus ride to college.
    Go to lessons till midday then either go home if i have no more lessons or eat lunch in the lunch hall with my lower school friends.
    Go home either midday or 4pm, watch tv, play video games, talk on msn, shower and come on here till about 1/2am when i go to bed and repeat.

    Non-college day -
    Get up around 10.30am, load up my computer, check and post on SF and myspace, facebook, netlog and bebo. Sign onto msn. Downstairs to make brunch and drink tea. Eat at kitchen table watching ugly betty on a weekday. Brush teeth, shower.
    Back up to my room where i'll spend most of the day on the computer and watching telleh. Mom gets home around 5 so i'll go chat to her in the kitchen and then back on here.
    Then dinner between 7 and 9, at the table in the kitchen watching telleh. Then back here till 3/4am.

    On a day where all my siblings, in laws and nieces and nephews are here (ie. today)
    Get woken up by kids cryiing, fighting or playing. Downstairs to make food, occasionly, if i'm in a good mood, make stuff for the kids. Eat downstairs with some family members.
    Upstairs to watch tv with my brother. Then the day gets mixed depending on who wants what. 34 people in one house is never a good idea o_O
  7. Summer.Rain

    Summer.Rain Well-Known Member

    Well for now i dont work so...
    I wake up around 11 am smoke a cig, eating breakfast, sitting infornt of the pc
    for the rest of the day, sleeping at night (around 11 pm im going to sleep).
    soon though ihope to change this by finding a job.
  8. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    8.00 am~Wake up, smoke a ciggie, log on to sf, get my niece up and ready for play school.


    2pm-cook dinner, clean, take a shower, read.

    5pm~stay on sf til I sleep!!
  9. alexander01

    alexander01 Active Member

    depending, If its a day when I have a shift Il wake up at 6, shower, then Il spiff up for work go downstairs while mom dad and my brother are still sleeping, eat breakfast, get into my car and drive to work. Il go have lunch with some friends on my dinner hour and will check my cell phone if a party or anything is planed for the night. then at the end of the day towards 5 Il get home on msn and plann something if nothing has been planned before that. (of course I dont always plan smething every day) If I cant go out that night Il eat my supper with my family then Il get in fron of the tv or in front of my comp.
  10. Anonymousboy

    Anonymousboy Member

    Awake all night, asleep throughout the day, listen to music, constantly thinking about negative issues, get frustrated and lonely, go out every once in a while, and that is it :)
  11. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    I sleep about two hours a night and about three hours during the day. After that I am usually here on the forum or just laying in bed watching the ceiling fan go round and round and listen to the stereo while watching the fan. That is about all I do in a day. {pretty boring huh??} It don't matter I am going to die sooner or later. I have had one heartattack and here lately I have been having chest pains again. This time I just deal with the pain. I don't tell anyone I will just die from natural causes and no one will realize it was sort of a way of commiting suicide.~Joseph~
  12. Melodie

    Melodie Member

    In college:
    Sleep from 10am-10pm
    Computer from 10pm-10am (reading forums, reading LiveJournal, playing online games like
    Occasionally going outside to get food around 12-1am.. if I can't go outside then order delivery to my dorm.
    The most social interaction I get is chatting online with a few people.

    I'm a useless lump!
    I'm 20, relatively healthy, smart, cute, nice... really there's no reason I ought to be so depressed or socially isolated.
  13. attack_amazon

    attack_amazon Well-Known Member

    Lately, I'm up all night, maybe get a couple hours of sleep early in the morning. Make my husband breakfast. Think about the one I'm not making breakfast for. Look for a job, find nothing. Go train for several hours and invaribly either bash my hands up or run til I collapse. Come back home, try to get some housework done, usually with only moderate success. Try to read or write or watch a movie, can't concentrate on it. If it's during the school year, intersperse that with classes and exams. Three times a week I go to my martial arts class for a few hours, which is one of the few things that can blot out everything else, but then I come home and wonder why I bother. Make my husband dinner and tool around on here for awhile.

    I'm 25. There are things I want to do, but I'm too tired to do them and I can't concentrate. I can't do nothing, so I train for something I won't live to actually do.
  14. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    I usually wake up at 7:00 am and see if I will be substitute teaching for the day. If I'm called in then my day is basically spent watching my students for the day. If I'm not called in then I just relax at home and watch tv, work out in my gym and eat. I tutor at a tutoring center in the evenings at 5pm, so I just wait for that. I come home at 8pm and probably watch tv and go on SF, and chat on msn until i get sleepy then go to bed. :smile:
  15. Starlightx

    Starlightx Member

    On a weekday - wake up ~6a, get ready for school, etc.
    At school until 3-4p.
    Online (msn, facebook, etc) until I can fall asleep.
    Homework, if I can concentrate and focus (rare).

    Weekend - wake up ~noon.
    MSN. Internet. Sleep on and off throughout the day. Stay hidden in the basement.
    Online until sleep...usually between midnight and 3a.

    And various, unavoidable shizz in between.
  16. ScarsandHopes

    ScarsandHopes Well-Known Member

    Wake up at 4am, go to school, go to work, get home about 4-9 pm.

    On the days when it's 4, I smoke about 2 packs, and then wonder why my life is in the shitter. Usually followed by me taking a shower and passing out in the process from lack of blood due to cutting in the shower.

    On days when it's 9, I get home smoke about a pack, and then drink myself to sleep, never wondering why my life sucks. But, instead, knowing why it does.

    Because I'm an old-fashioned fuck-up. I accidently intentionaly (Kinda weird) screw my life up.
  17. Angelo_91

    Angelo_91 Well-Known Member

    i just chill
  18. InfernoX

    InfernoX Member

    Schoolday: Wake up around 7am, go to school until 9:40, come home until 11:40, go back to school until 3:05, come home and go on the computer until I go to bed.

    Wake up around whenever, go on computer until I go to bed with occassional breaks to eat, take care of personal hygiene and read.

    Occassionally I might actually talk to someone.
  19. thedeafmusician

    thedeafmusician Staff Alumni

    get up around 7, shower, go to school & stay there til about 4, come home, feed my dogs, practice music, read, have dinner, housework, homework (& go on the comp at the same time), answer the various calls for homework help i get, go to bed around 11 but dont sleep til about 3.
  20. lachrymose

    lachrymose Account Closed

    i wake up and i do the morning routine (brush teeth etc)

    then i check my e-mails, surf the web (download porn too), eat, play with the Wii, sleep a little more (but play some DS before i sleep a little more), wake up, surf the web (buy things i can't afford with my credit card, i'm not even working), eat, play with the wii, do nighttime things, and lastly play with my DS until i fall asleep.

    i am 23 years old, and this is what my average day looks like.
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