Right now, temptation is powerful. Desire is strong. I'm not in the 'right' place to attempt just now but its coming. I find myself waiting for the sudden urge of impulse. Im not scared. Im not worried. not yet at least. Why do i write here? i dont know? maybe i dont wanna feel like this. im sick of the shit i put myself through, yes i know its my own doing. im sick of my thoughts. Sick of having to be 'happy' all the time. I dont even know what to say. sorry i guess.