I have come to a very complicated set of circumstances in my life which I am solely responsible for. in my 29yrs I have never been so overcome with such pain sorrow shame hopelessness. I have hurt the ppl I love the most I feel like the only way to show everyone the hole I have caused not just in them but also myself is through ending my own life. And I can't see things getting better. I want to believe but I am the true definition of despair. <mod edit - methods> I am scared of the pain I will feel but the reason I back away the most is I dont want others strangers to experience this horror. I have caused enough hurt to ppl. I dont want to become another horrible memory to anyone else..... Please someone help me I dont see this ending good. I feel for my parents. For my family but it's almost like in my heart I just know it's time for me to go.