Maybe the best thing for you to do is leave the house and start a life that does not involve them if they are truly as mean and evil to you as you say they are. There has to be a way for you to get away from them and find some support in starting anew. Take care. :hug:
its my fault . i have been too simple naieve and idealist. an idiot to say the least . i deliberately stipilated upon my aelf all that they were forcing me on . it is self destruction self affliction all in a wishful naieve premise that if i accept each and every of their unbelievabele and untolerable demands they would be happy and accept me as one of them.
I should have left them years ago but as a child and teenager i was very vulnerable and physically weak but facially very attractive. i thought it was better to stay put and totally submit to them instead of having some mishap happen in the pathtic pakistani society. Now i feel that i would have been better off had i left them at a much younger age. its been a terrible time living with them. i can hardly belive i am 26. 26 thats past half of productive life. i have lost the sense of time. time seems to be rushing away. it seems that time is not passing for be but i am passing through time .
The poetic justice would be if i become powerful enough to confront them and fight them bitterly and inflict them just as badly as they inflict me . theros is a well thoughtout scheme. Every thing that they do they blame it upon me some of their obnoxious blames are
1- when i first fell sick with sever abdominal pain mother vehemently accused me of not wanting to study and feining my symptoms. so i missed my 11th grade papers but they did not allow me medical treatment but instead had me institutionalised in an oppressive military psychiatric ward for 2 months. My belly pain continues to this day. Doctors say that it is IRRITABLE BOWEL SYNDROME. but i feel it is some thing else
2- father started accusing me of wanting to kill every one in the family and taking over the house. yet they all insisted that i should leave the hosue and go away.
3- then they started saying that i had no virtue was totally devoid of any good attributes
yet i had model like looks
a sharp mind
and a healty body prior to the belly pangs
its furious uncontroblable jealousy and antagonism on their part
its hard to describe what i am going through. they have neighbours with them the relatives and many people whom i dont even know
father said that you are a dog mother says the same and they all say that
. i was shocked to hear my little niece say innocently "uncle you are a dog"
they tell them to say that to me .
ENOUGH is ENOUGH for me they have been torchuring me psychologically and emotionally
would anyone believe that my mother tricked me into being viciously beaten up by my brothers in law . they hit me all over my head face and chest. my head aches even now after 3 years of the incident and my molars are now in pretty bad shape.
they are threatening me still. mother and said that more things have yet to happen to you. i try to delude my self and say that nothing will happen yet it keeps on going . Its hard to see the "total reality of the matter". Its too much to believe too much to bear